be brave.

brave.
adjective. having or showing mental or moral strength to face danger, fear, or difficulty : having or showing courage

these past few years have really taken a lot out of me.

from hitting rock bottom, to continually being wrung out by life’s unfairness and sadness.

to losing a huge part of my social, happy, brave self.

to losing family to god’s painful timing.

to pushing my body through the pain of the car accident,

& my soul through the emotional pain.

and even though life has been testing the living fuck out of me still,

especially with Bear being diagnosed with cancer, and having lack of answers,

i’ve been praying that he’s not in pain and maybe just maybe it’ll be okay.

that it’s not aggressive, and something Bear will strongly outlive.

just please.

to be honest, i feel as if each time i think everything will be okay again, something else gets thrown at me.

and i’ve been so strong for so damn long. but even the strongest fall to their knees from time to time. 
even the strongest break and cry.

but despite all that, i’ve been so proud of myself lately.

i’ve been brave.

i started to invest in myself.

i’ve been focusing on my health,

my art,

my soul,

my life.

i’ve been taking chances.

and forcing myself to jump out of my comfort zone,

Something that I used to do all the time, but now is a challenge.

but that’s life.

an unfair challenge.

but holy fuck, darlings, life is so goddamn beautiful.

especially when you invest in yourself.

go to the gym.

listen to that song on full blast and dance your ass off.

sing that song even if you’re off key.

write in your journal.

do yoga.

eat that fucking cookie.

find your balance, love.

find your psithurism.

where do you find peace in your heart and soul?

what makes you feel alive?

what makes you passionate about life?

whatever’s good for your soul, do that.

(heyyyyy what’s up senior quote lol).

still true though.

believing in my art has really helped me heal.

so i hope you believe in your art too. whether your art is music, writing, dancing, painting, sketching, modeling, photography, skateboarding, working out, running, fashion, cooking, breathing, living, loving… in the end, it’s all art, darling.

be proud of yourself.

be brave.

be happy.

be love.

love yourself out of whatever pain your feeling.

it gets better. even when it doesn’t feel like it does.

just trust me.

it does if you allow it to.

your story isn’t done yet.

your light is ready to shine.

your flowers are ready to grow.