drapetomania.
noun. an overwhelming urge to run away
i’ve always enjoyed traveling—going somewhere new.
experiencing new places lights up my soul.
lately, my wanderlust feeling has intensified more than ever before.
college has been weird. my anxiety has skyrocketed.
i’ve been put through the ringer.
during the summer, my parents asked me if i was nervous about college. i replied “not about the education, but about the people.”
i was right.
as if anxiety wasn’t enough,
my depression has made a comeback lately. not as bad as it was freshman year, so it’s manageable.
i guess it just proves that depression and anxiety never fully go away.
it’s just a thing that i need to accept, and need to move forward.
it’s hard to move forward without the right support system there with you.
granted, and luckily, i have the best support system called my family, and my incredible friends.
just wished they were closer.
time is what i need.
**please, if a loved one is going through depression or anxiety, don't make them feel like it's an inconvenience. we know.
please, if you are going through depression or anxiety, don't hate yourself. love yourself out of it. love yourself the best you can.**
it's hard just to deal with it when "it" is feeling so unbelievably happy at times.
that's why i want to run away.
a new place. just for a moment. just to be at peace.
i miss my soul lit up, sparkling.
i keep tracing my tattoo, just trying to engrave the fact that i am art and i am worth fighting and worth being happy over and over again in my head, in my heart. it’s been helping. one day i won’t have to trace it—i’ll know.
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“back to the floor that I love. to a room with some lace and paper flowers. back to the gypsy that i was."
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one day, it'll all be okay.
it'll all be worth it.
