noun and verb. the art of repairing pottery with gold lacquer and understanding that the piece is more beautiful for having been broken. to repair with gold.
photo credit to the beautiful Natalie Plata, aka Life Through A Rose Lense.
she did an absolutely beautiful project for the month of may--mental health awareness month. during this project, she photographed amazing souls to help share their stories and what they struggle with to help bring awareness. thank you so much for allowing me to be a part of this project. and thank you so much for taking absolutely brilliant photos.
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i have anxiety.
it's a hard fact that i have to live with every day.
some days are better than others.
and i am so thankful for the better days because it means that i am not completely broken.
those days make me feel the gold inside of me.
they make me feel good and weightless and happy.
but the bad days are still there.
and the bad days make me feel broken and heavy.
sad and angry.
scared and frustrated.
anxiety starts in your chest and spreads like ink on thin paper.
a tie-dye design of anxiousness.
you can't breathe. it takes control of your chest and spreads up to your mind and through your veins.
but self love helps me heal.
self love pours gold on my brokenness and mends all the edges back together.
that gold makes me stronger and more beautiful than i was before anxiety threw me against the cold marble floor and watched me shatter.
however, gold does not eliminate the harshness of anxiety that i experience. it does not glorify or glamorize it.
it makes it apparent to everyone. it forces me to be vulnerable. it shows off my once broken pieces. but by forcing me to accept it, and deal with it, and love myself still--that is a very beautiful thing.
me not giving up is beautiful and victorious.
and not giving up is tough, but so am i.
and darling, so are you.
you too are tough and brave and absolutely beautiful.
love yourself so much that the gold pulls your broken pieces together and makes you whole again.
because darling, you deserve it.
and i promise you, you will shine again if you allow yourself to.
